its been a good week for me i had a GREAT birthday and a great birthday weekend. i had so much fun with my friends it was crazy. but i did something on the back of my mind that i dont understand. "LIKING" or "LOVING". like i understand how it works and more but what i dont get that if you like or love someone you really need to tell someone because you really may miss out on something great and something that you may not have never have and may not never get again in your life because your doing things different and listening to other people. your listening to them when you should listen to your heart and gut

It's different than a dream

when you think about life you think of as how you dream it would be and everything goes your way. Well your wrong... life and your dreams are two different things. In your Dream you get what you want and its paradise but it real life you have to work hard to make your dreams a reality and talk the right way and accomplish things the right way in order for them to go smoothly. you just have to picture it, want it and accomplish it. Then when you do that you will look back and say" that wasn't hard to do" but then think back and say " i went though a lot and accomplish a lot to make my dreams a reality and made life for me better on my own but with a little help". When you realize that you will go far a life for you will be Paradise. Just believe in yourself and don't listen to anyone that has something negative to say about you because they are just bored with their lives and don't have anything to do. Just force on the people that believe in you. the ones  that helped you, loved you and pushed you to go for you dreams and loved you cause you were you and not someone else.

Its okay

just because your by yourself doesn't mean your alone. Its a normal thing to be alone and its kinda good to be alone. You get to think about a lot of stuff and have fun. My friends say that i need a guy in my life cause it looks like i have one but i don't.But what they don't know is that am happy by my self  and theirs nothing wrong with it. Being by your self lets you think and its good for you. But if you cant be by yourself how can you be with someone else.

Needing something

It feels like there's something missing in my life. Maybe its the happiness of a happy family, the affections of someone else. Or maybe its me missing the picture of life. Maybe that's what am missing. The big pic of life is what am missing and am been so blind worrying about other things that didn't matter like clothes,shoes, or boys. I was so focus on that stuff that i never got to see what the world was really like. helping the people that need it or doing something good cause you know it would help not because you have too someone told you too. And i think that's something i what to do and kinda help the world.

Life is very weird and wrong. Thing sin my life aren't peaches and cream. Am kinda not happy with the way my life have been. Its true what they say "life is a pain in the ass and you can't do anything about it". But am tried of letting life do what it what's with me and i cant handle it. My family is going though a struggle and because of my action last week. I cant deal with it. its something that i regret doing but i cant take it back and i guess i deserve what life is handing to me.

tried of being lied to. Need to find someone who wants me for me. Not because he wants something or playing a little game to show his friends he can get me. Dont need that in my life when i know that i can find someone real as god.